A Chapter From The Diary Of A Broken Heart

This post is an attempt to not mend the heart, but to make the heart breaker realize what he/she does to that one person who may care the world for them....

They say love is painful. Even if they don't, I say it is! She is not in physical pain. Though the rate at which she is starving herself, she is the same neighbourhood as pain.That's not all! She is suffering from emotional pain, a terrible terrible heart ache.

The sinking feeling,the loneliness...

That's pretty much how she feels,all the time...

Except ,maybe when she is with people around her..Her friends,her classmates, she seems fine in class,during lectures but the minute she is out of class,alone and by herself,it seems like her soul has been sucked out of her! She goes into this phase of absolute blankness! She is sinking,going down and down and loosing view of the surface. Tears have taken refuge in her eyes but they refuse to come out..They are stuck,she is stuck..She knows this is a phase(at least she hopes),she knows that eventually she will get over it but how long is she going to be like this..she doesn't know what to do..I don't know what to tell her..         

                                                                                                          “ I am not sure if I did the right thing by confessing..But I don't feel like a girl with her crushes, I feel a little grown up..My emotions seem to be running deep within me..My brain and heart seem to be on a synchronized mode and thus no hunger and no sleep is within me anymore. I don't eat, I don't sleep. I am not hungry and never sleepy!And some questions seem to haunt me..

Why..

Why is it that if you love someone,that someone doesn't love you back??

Why is it that people disregard your feelings?

Why don't people believe in giving it a chance...give it a chance,you may fall in love! You never know what life has in store for you! And yes,many will say, wait for the "right" person to come along...But the only way to figure out the "right" person  is to experience the "wrong" ones! Ever considered "she may be worth the risk" or "he may be a nice guy"! Ever thought that by not being the "right " person for him/her,you may just help him/her break their illusion about "right" and "wrong"..even for that,you need to give it a thought, a shot..!Give it a chance now so that you don't say a "what if" later...

Don't ever catch yourself saying or even thinking "she loved me,and I told her I don't feel the same but I never even considered the possibility that I may feel the same..I never said “lets give it a chance” 

This is what she said........................
And what do I have to say.....

I don't think we are born with this instinct called love..are we? It develops through the years of our relationships with those around us. Therefore, how can one decide that they don't love the other without giving it a chance...that's all,a chance....its obvious that if I love you,I gave that feeling time to grow in me,you didn't even try!

Some times, its not about that heart break or the depression that follows.Consider the bigger picture....

Love is not instinctual,it takes time to grow,so let it grow...if he loves you,you may not love him back but at least give yourself a chance to love him..if she is in love with you,don't ask her to forget you and find the right person and move on,at least see if their was a possibility for the love to grow..Because,dear friends,life is short and hence one should consider themselves lucky if someone says ..'I love you' or even something as small as 'I have a crush on you' ..because this means that that someone gave it a chance...and you may go your whole life and not even give it a thought,let alone a chance..

Learn to love,and let that love grow..don't nip the bud before the flower blooms....You may kill that feeling for life..not within yourself,in someone else....