Thursday, June 30, 2011

6 months....

This is a random post,very insignificant, nothing super duper important as such...Just  wanted to post something..:P


This is just a reminder to self that 6 months have passed and 6 months to go... Time is running, faster than ever...If time were a person,it would set new records everyday... Time is running out, passing by...I can't believe 6 months are over..Where did these 6 months go to..With exams,my birthday,summer vacations,plays,internship,books,shopping,some other birthdays, articles,theatre,literature etc etc, 6 months have passed in a jiffy...


Lets see what the next 6 months have in store for me!


CANNOT BELIEVE 6 MONTHS HAVE PASSED!

Friday, June 17, 2011

A Chapter From The Diary Of A Broken Heart

This post is an attempt to not mend the heart, but to make the heart breaker realize what he/she does to that one person who may care the world for them....




They say love is painful. Even if they don't, I say it is! She is not in physical pain. Though the rate at which she is starving herself, she is the same neighbourhood as pain.That's not all! She is suffering from emotional pain, a terrible terrible heart ache.

The sinking feeling,the loneliness...
That's pretty much how she feels,all the time...

Except ,maybe when she is with people around her..Her friends,her classmates, she seems fine in class,during lectures but the minute she is out of class,alone and by herself,it seems like her soul has been sucked out of her! She goes into this phase of absolute blankness! She is sinking,going down and down and loosing view of the surface. Tears have taken refuge in her eyes but they refuse to come out..They are stuck,she is stuck..She knows this is a phase(at least she hopes),she knows that eventually she will get over it but how long is she going to be like this..she doesn't know what to do..I don't know what to tell her..         
                                                                                                          I am not sure if I did the right thing by confessing..But I don't feel like a girl with her crushes, I feel a little grown up..My emotions seem to be running deep within me..My brain and heart seem to be on a synchronized mode and thus no hunger and no sleep is within me anymore. I don't eat, I don't sleep. I am not hungry and never sleepy!And some questions seem to haunt me..
Why..
Why is it that if you love someone,that someone doesn't love you back??
Why is it that people disregard your feelings?
Why don't people believe in giving it a chance...give it a chance,you may fall in love! You never know what life has in store for you! And yes,many will say, wait for the "right" person to come along...But the only way to figure out the "right" person  is to experience the "wrong" ones! Ever considered "she may be worth the risk" or "he may be a nice guy"! Ever thought that by not being the "right " person for him/her,you may just help him/her break their illusion about "right" and "wrong"..even for that,you need to give it a thought, a shot..!Give it a chance now so that you don't say a "what if" later...
Don't ever catch yourself saying or even thinking "she loved me,and I told her I don't feel the same but I never even considered the possibility that I may feel the same..I never said “lets give it a chance” 
This is what she said........................
And what do I have to say.....

I don't think we are born with this instinct called love..are we? It develops through the years of our relationships with those around us. Therefore, how can one decide that they don't love the other without giving it a chance...that's all,a chance....its obvious that if I love you,I gave that feeling time to grow in me,you didn't even try!
Some times, its not about that heart break or the depression that follows.Consider the bigger picture....


Love is not instinctual,it takes time to grow,so let it grow...if he loves you,you may not love him back but at least give yourself a chance to love him..if she is in love with you,don't ask her to forget you and find the right person and move on,at least see if their was a possibility for the love to grow..Because,dear friends,life is short and hence one should consider themselves lucky if someone says ..'I love you' or even something as small as 'I have a crush on you' ..because this means that that someone gave it a chance...and you may go your whole life and not even give it a thought,let alone a chance..
Learn to love,and let that love grow..don't nip the bud before the flower blooms....You may kill that feeling for life..not within yourself,in someone else....

Friday, June 10, 2011

A note to say Thank You



Here is a note to say Thank You.

To all that that mattered and to all that that didn’t.
To all those experiences and to those that are to come..
To those sleepless nights of introspection…
To those sunny days of smiles….


To the birds that wake me up in the morning…..
To the ocean that spreads calmness throughout my body…….
To the colours of the Rainbow…….
To the breeze blowing during monsoons……..



To those Friends who flatter me always
To those Flatterers who pretend to be friends
To those people who are Family
To that family who are People


To the world for being the way it is

Here is a note to say Thank You…
To life, people, surroundings, nature, everything

Thank You for making me “Me”

Mindless Nomadic Wanderings of the Mind



Sleep seems to be a little distant now… Actually very far away. The funny thing is that my eyes feel heavy, I look sleepy but somehow my mind refuses to register that. I am awake, wide awake…Staring out into the starless night, looking at the cloudy skies…And my mind is ticking, like a clock like a bomb. It’s going to blow up very soon. If it doesn’t find answers. But answers to what???? I don’t know...
Another sleepless night. Or maybe it’s going to be a while before I break into this half hearted sleep. Where I stir, lie half awake but still rather sleepy...
Is that my phone ringing? No, it is not! only wish it were...


Number of people online on gtalk and Facebook = 0...


Damn this luck. When you need someone to talk to, nobody is around. When you need time alone, the world pounces on you like it’s the end of the world and you have the secret to live on into immortality!
It’s a ruthless world we live in...
But the point is, I am still unable to sleep...those questions seem to have taken refuge in my mind. And refuse to leave till they find some answers...
I guess they will have to wait and so will I...  And the mind continues to wander around, looking for answers, asking more questions and I fall into this deep Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Friday, June 3, 2011

I have walked out in rain - and back in rain

And there was some thunder and lightning and before you knew it, the streets of Mumbai were lashed with the pre-monsoon showers! It was such a beautiful sight...like love at first sight..
Mumbai is known for her monsoons.. The floods, the colourful umbrellas, the bight windcheaters, the cutting chai and jalebis at the road side stalls..wow! 3 months of that..The best 3 months ever.. People in Mumbai complain a lot about the rains but eventually, they all love it.. Its a great change from the sweltering heat in the months of April and May..Its a change, a beautiful refreshing change...!


The Rains remind me of so many things.. Robert Frost's Poetry, A Hot Cup Of Coco, My Favorite Book, Bollywood Movies..And waking up,all snuggled into your warm blankets to a rainy morning...
 I love that feeling...!!
I think Bollywood movies make Monsoons the month of soul mate searching.. Those romantic songs make my heart tinkle with joy..The black umbrella and the lovers standing under it,shy and quiet.. The girl dancing, asking for her loved one to come soon..The lover dancing with her beloved in the rain, doing a waltz on the streets...Its all so magical!




Some of my favorite lines and quotes about the rain are below...:)
  • The roadside flowers, too wet for the bee,
    Expend their bloom in vain.
    Come over the hills and far with me,
    And be my love in the rain.
                                A Line- Storm Song By Robert Frost
  • Oh, come forth into the storm and rout
    And be my love in the rain.
                               A Line- Storm Song By Robert Frost
     
  • A poet is someone who stands outside in the rain hoping to be struck by lightning.
  • And when it rains on your parade, look up rather than down. Without the rain, there would be no rainbow.
  • Let the rain kiss you. Let the rain beat upon your head with silver liquid drops. Let the rain sing you a lullaby.
  • A rainy day is the perfect time for a walk in the woods.