And I stopped believeing...

And they kept saying "this too shall pass" or  "this happens all the time"...
They kept saying these things, things kept happening
And one fine day, I stopped believing! I stopped believing in everything they had to say...I just believed that this is how it will be because this is how its been for almost forever... 
No I am not a depressed soul who has lost meaning in life... I have just stopped believing in those intrinsic happy wala feelings...They don't exist...Being happy is a privilege,being unhappy is a way of life...

Piece of Mind

Its hard to imagine how quickly time seems to be passing. I miss so much of my old days. I miss the roadside shopping with my best friend, the crazy beach side walks with my childhood buddy... We seem to have no time for anything and its just scary!

I always seemed to be the sorts who would have time for everything,for all my friends, for life in general..

Now it seems like I have no time for myself... Things are just going so fast...And I am trying to hold onto it all...Not working...

I am in my imagined perfect place, this is where I always wanted to be but then again, what am I loosing out on... I guess you have a price to pay for getting what you want..and I am paying that price by loosing out on time... Time with friends and with myself... Yes it has been a while since I did something for myself, just for myself... and I am not talking about random retail therapy moments, something much more than that...

When was the last time I held that hand because I really wanted to not let go...?

When was the last time I walked that path because I wanted to and not because that was my only choice...?

Damn, this whole deal with future is pretty not happy...

Ah but I will survive... I hope!