And I stopped believeing...

And they kept saying "this too shall pass" or  "this happens all the time"...
They kept saying these things, things kept happening
And one fine day, I stopped believing! I stopped believing in everything they had to say...I just believed that this is how it will be because this is how its been for almost forever... 
No I am not a depressed soul who has lost meaning in life... I have just stopped believing in those intrinsic happy wala feelings...They don't exist...Being happy is a privilege,being unhappy is a way of life...

Piece of Mind

Its hard to imagine how quickly time seems to be passing. I miss so much of my old days. I miss the roadside shopping with my best friend, the crazy beach side walks with my childhood buddy... We seem to have no time for anything and its just scary!

I always seemed to be the sorts who would have time for everything,for all my friends, for life in general..

Now it seems like I have no time for myself... Things are just going so fast...And I am trying to hold onto it all...Not working...

I am in my imagined perfect place, this is where I always wanted to be but then again, what am I loosing out on... I guess you have a price to pay for getting what you want..and I am paying that price by loosing out on time... Time with friends and with myself... Yes it has been a while since I did something for myself, just for myself... and I am not talking about random retail therapy moments, something much more than that...

When was the last time I held that hand because I really wanted to not let go...?

When was the last time I walked that path because I wanted to and not because that was my only choice...?

Damn, this whole deal with future is pretty not happy...

Ah but I will survive... I hope!

Store it in a bottle!

There are certain moments in your life that you wish you could have held on to  forever...
There are some people who you wish had never left
There are some walks you wish had lasted forever
There are certain feelings you wish would experience over and over again


There are some smiles that are hard to miss
Laughter that is always heard
Signs of love and friendship
That make the dullest days bright....


So here is a wish..That may all these moments,experiences,feelings be stored in a tiny bottle of hope,faith and love...That they remain in my heart forever!

Some conversations

Sometimes,you have the most random conversation with the most random person..and that conversation makes an impression..and leaves you with a lifetime lesson...


Sometimes,you have some conversations you never wanted to but at the end of it,you feel glad it happend...


Sometimes,you have that much needed conversation,that was to happen a while back,but you kept pushing it off your "to do" list because you wish it were to never happen...


Sometimes, you just have that perfect conversation,which was random,never wanted but much needed at the same time...And,that my friend,is the best conversation ever...Because it leaves you with something new about yourself....

Favorite Time Of The Year

D.E.C.E.M.B.E.R

This is most definitely my favorite time of the year. No,its not because of Christmas or New Year... December is THESPO TIME!!!


So basically Thespo is a youth theatre festival that has been happening for the last 13 years. This year, Thespo has turned into a teenager and a "dramatic" one at that... I got introduced to Thespo last year through a friend who urged me to attend the volunteer meeting and then com for the other meetings and be a part of Team Thespo...Boy, am I glad I joined in... I can confidently say that Thespo is by far the best thing that has happend to me in a very long time... There is so much life and fun to this festival  that if you take part in it once, you crave for a another chance. 


Thespo 12 is very close to my heart as it was my very first Thespo...That was last year and now as we count days to Thespo 13 (11 days), I look back and realize that I have learned so much...Not just about theatre but about team work, about running a festival, about goofing up about a million times but still not giving up, about loving every moment of those stressful sleepless nights...


Thespo 13 gave me the tag of SYTT(Second Year At Thespo)... The stress has just begun.. With 11 days in hand, decor to be done,designs to be made,articles to be written,one would think we will never make it...


But the spirit of theatre never dies among us "thespo-ites"...


I urge one and all to come and attend the festival.. You don't have to watch the outstanding plays or participate in the phenomenal workshops.. Just come and watch the spirit of youth unfold..


Thespo 13- Theatre Tera Mera


http://thespo13.blogspot.com/

Letter to Life

Dear Life,


I want you to slow down. I don't want you to rush the way you are right now. I don't want you to remind me about long gone days and forgotten times. I want you to help me enjoy each passing moment,live each day.
I want you to help me live through those "oh I want to kill someone" days. I want you to introduce me to inspiring and interesting people each day. At the same,lets remember that not all people are inspiring ,some can be normal like me.....


I hope you understand.


Thanks


Yours lovingly
Loosing Track

White Horse

The difference between reality and dreams..a very big one..Very rarely will you find both together or rather both are usually starkly different...but somehow they seem to be merging together for me..My reality is actually very close to that dream...Its so difficult to live in your dream because you are always afraid of waking up into reality.. The not so nice world where you are constantly reminded about your do's and don'ts...where it is absoluetly essential to behave in a certain way..
And then there are dreams..Where everything is happy and beautiful...I have been living in my dreams even though they are a relaity...but short lived...so the moral is to make the most of it..


Why is this post called White Horse?
Heard of that song by Taylor Swift...White Horse... some bits kind of merge every girl's dream and reality...


I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale,
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down,
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around


And here we have a dream and a reality..To be a princess,find true love..and then bang comes reality...thats what happens in Hollywood,in the movies,in dreams....